The one thing We dislike

I've just finished a one on one with my sister; its one of the few times we share such sentiments. I'm comforted to know that despite she is a busy woman and hardly ever talks much when she is at home, she is supportive. During our conversation, we shared similar thoughts about my parents but I'm saddened that they weren't positive. In viewing them, listening to them, basically living under their roof and following their guidances, I've noticed that they have somewhat of a negative attitude towards difficult times, challenges, change mostly. My sister shares the same thoughts, sigh. I only wish they were more hopeful, positive and tell us we could conquer the world, instead of reminding us of the difficulties and showing disapproval. Its a attitude that they can easily relay unto us but its not the way I want to face decisions, its not a way I want to live and its not something I want to pass unto my kids either. Its their job to warn us and not want us to face difficult times but if it doesn't turn out the way they wanted, show a little love wont u?

More Life than Excitement

Some of us find ourselves day after day living a routine of classes and assignments, while other find themselves living a 8-5 working day week. Its not the first time I've heard this question, and I too have thought about it before, "where is the excitement?" For some, the days are filled with boredom, living only because our heart keeps pumping.

I've carried the feeling before but only consumed in stress, having no energy to think of anything that mattered less. I'm relieved that I've left such horrid feelings behind and also glad to have noticed what really does matter from what doesn't, mere objects, opinions, looks, pitiful thoughts, senseless thoughts... it doesn't change a thing and it definitely doesn't make it any better.

But I've learned too, that only excitement will not do. The crazy fun does nothing for me, and would fall into the routine category or worse. I say this is where all of us need to make meaning out of our lives, figure out what is important, what is fun for us, what makes butterflies flutter in out stomach, what really drives our excitement, and makes our pulse race and start from there.